When things are new, we often jump into a guarded and cautious method of being. We don't want to put ourselves out there and find that this new thing, be it job, relationship or even a new hobby, was a waste of time, effort and emotion. It's our natural safeguard. I have stepped out of that safety bubble, and so far things are looking good.
I'm dating. It's strange to say/think/type those words. It's been a pretty long time since I've been in this situation and I'm nervous. I'm not "I can't eat in front of him" nervous. He actually makes me feel very comfortable around him. I'm more of the "I really hope I don't do something to mess this up and send him running" nervous. I like him. I admit that to myself, and that's the most nerve wracking part of this whole thing. It's still new, and yet I'm allowing myself to say "I'm in it" and open myself up to a possibility of the good and the bad. I have a feeling that there is going to be a whole lot more good than bad though. He was really understanding when I ran out of propane this weekend and had no hot water, heat or formal cooking surface. I managed to make dinner and breakfast (and finish the blondies that had started baking) in the microwave, but he did what he could to make me feel better about the situation at hand. He's a good guy, that's for sure.
-- Jessica
Sunday, January 24, 2010
Tuesday, January 12, 2010
12 in 12
It's been awhile, but the concept is back.
The horse pills I get to take for 5 days. At least while fighting the infection I'll be anthrax free.
It certainly felt colder than this at 7:45. I'd say it felt more like 7 degrees.
This is a pretty decent song. It's in rotation in the mornings when I need something to pump me up for work.
I had to park in the back lot today, so I decided to snap a shot of the back side of campus.
After dropping a student off at a music therapy class, I decided to snap a shot of the center of campus. The paths are heated so ice doesn't form on them, allowing them to be used during the winter.
My landlord's barn is something I enjoy seeing. It means I'm almost home!
My hill. NOT fun in the winter.
You can see exactly how far Coda's chain reaches from the porch.
The new candle holders I picked up at Kohls. Less than $15 for both!
My sister's skating coach gave me my first skating gift: an iceskate tin with mixed nuts.
I used to think reese's pieces were amazing. That was until I tried these. Sooo good! I also removed all the green plastic pieces from my candle holder to say "farewell" to Christmas and "Hey there" to Valentine's day.
Minus the eye goo, he's a pretty cute pup. Since the man friend isn't around, he's the best cuddler around. :-)
-- Jessica
The horse pills I get to take for 5 days. At least while fighting the infection I'll be anthrax free.
It certainly felt colder than this at 7:45. I'd say it felt more like 7 degrees.
This is a pretty decent song. It's in rotation in the mornings when I need something to pump me up for work.
I had to park in the back lot today, so I decided to snap a shot of the back side of campus.
After dropping a student off at a music therapy class, I decided to snap a shot of the center of campus. The paths are heated so ice doesn't form on them, allowing them to be used during the winter.
My landlord's barn is something I enjoy seeing. It means I'm almost home!
My hill. NOT fun in the winter.
You can see exactly how far Coda's chain reaches from the porch.
The new candle holders I picked up at Kohls. Less than $15 for both!
My sister's skating coach gave me my first skating gift: an iceskate tin with mixed nuts.
I used to think reese's pieces were amazing. That was until I tried these. Sooo good! I also removed all the green plastic pieces from my candle holder to say "farewell" to Christmas and "Hey there" to Valentine's day.
Minus the eye goo, he's a pretty cute pup. Since the man friend isn't around, he's the best cuddler around. :-)
-- Jessica
Saturday, January 2, 2010
2010
Years ago I was convinced to have a psychic read my palms and tell me my future. My cousins Bek and Mandee as well as their mother took part in this. I don't know about them, but I'm wondering if any of it will come true. This year, I turn 25. According to this particular psychic, this is a big year for me. I went back on my trusty LiveJournal (I knew there was a reason to keep it) and found the post from my psychic reading. Here is what was said:
"-I will live a very long life...past the age of 82.
-I will not be rich in my lifetime, but I will be comfortable.
-I will have two children.
-I will be with my soulmate by the age of 25. Until then, I will be in and out of relationships.
-I've been hurt in the past, and that's why I do not trust easily.
-I'm very romantic and spontaneous.
-Someone in my family is sick, but not sick enough to be in bed all of the time.
-I will have no debt.
-I care for someone now, but he is a very stubborn man.
-I will work very hard for the things that I have, and I will appreciate it because of that."
Mom was having knee troubles and my grandfather wasn't doing well at the time, so that takes care of that particular portion.
I cared deeply about Eddie, and he was very stubborn. I still care for him, but no longer in the romantic sense. This is more along the lines of brotherly affection.
As for the "soul mate" thing...
I'm not going to say that I don't want this to be true. I feel as though I'm at a point in my life where I could be in a long and committed relationship. Am I ready to get married and have lots of sex and babies? (love actually quote...who doesn't love sex...lol) No. I do not feel as though I'm ready to become Mrs. "Insert-last-name-here" just yet. I am most definitely not ready for babies. I love children and desperately want to have kids of my own, just not yet. Whatever the case, we will see what happens by this summer. I'll hopefully be turning 25 in Florida, as it's a mere 5 days before Trista and Josh are married. Who knows what conversation I'll have with trista about my romantic future. :-p
Anyway, I figured I'd share this little blip of information to see what kind of feedback I'd receive. Until next time, happy 2010. Hopefully all that you desire in your future will come true. ;-)
-- Jessica
"-I will live a very long life...past the age of 82.
-I will not be rich in my lifetime, but I will be comfortable.
-I will have two children.
-I will be with my soulmate by the age of 25. Until then, I will be in and out of relationships.
-I've been hurt in the past, and that's why I do not trust easily.
-I'm very romantic and spontaneous.
-Someone in my family is sick, but not sick enough to be in bed all of the time.
-I will have no debt.
-I care for someone now, but he is a very stubborn man.
-I will work very hard for the things that I have, and I will appreciate it because of that."
Mom was having knee troubles and my grandfather wasn't doing well at the time, so that takes care of that particular portion.
I cared deeply about Eddie, and he was very stubborn. I still care for him, but no longer in the romantic sense. This is more along the lines of brotherly affection.
As for the "soul mate" thing...
I'm not going to say that I don't want this to be true. I feel as though I'm at a point in my life where I could be in a long and committed relationship. Am I ready to get married and have lots of sex and babies? (love actually quote...who doesn't love sex...lol) No. I do not feel as though I'm ready to become Mrs. "Insert-last-name-here" just yet. I am most definitely not ready for babies. I love children and desperately want to have kids of my own, just not yet. Whatever the case, we will see what happens by this summer. I'll hopefully be turning 25 in Florida, as it's a mere 5 days before Trista and Josh are married. Who knows what conversation I'll have with trista about my romantic future. :-p
Anyway, I figured I'd share this little blip of information to see what kind of feedback I'd receive. Until next time, happy 2010. Hopefully all that you desire in your future will come true. ;-)
-- Jessica
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